The move to the island has been a hike and finally I’ve reached some sort of a plateau. Settling in to the new (fully furnished; thank god!) apartment and getting that comfortable, as well as doing the most epic rinse of collected items in my life, have been extremely comforting as well as emotionally and physically cleansing. I’ve gotten rid of the items that once had meaning and emotional value as they only became an extra weight in my transient lifestyle. I feel much better being confined to two wardrobes, where my belongings fit; physical boundaries that I have to follow. Yes!
Once physically settled, it was time to figure out a network. Having burnt my bridges last time I departed, I have a clean networking slate. I immersed myself in events that I would not necessarily have taken part in pre-2011, and it seems to have been the most fruitful. Having met a great group of internationals with like-minded enthusiasm for exploring, activity and planning, it appears that I will be short of dull moments during my island stint. A huge mix of characters in this little group and I’m appreciating the discussions, points of view and moments of utter insanity from all directions. My active lifestyle is still going strong with a running group and weekly yoga, and my ability to talk the ears off a donkey is being exercised as well, bringing me to a wonderful state of inner calm.
HOWEVER, that being said, the affairs of the heart are not at rest. Despite finding clarity amongst the wonderful people I surround myself, my uncanny ability in discovering fantastic opportunities at the most inopportune times continues to reign supreme. Having met a kindred transient who (gasp!) actually wants to give me the time of day, I find I am reminding myself to remain mentally idle when dealing with emotions on a long distance scale. There is no point in asking for exclusivity or a definition of something that can only be described as a situation that requires two very impulsive and enthusiastic people in order for it to work. Having discussed these mental knots, I have been told that this is something that should be making me happy, and if it isn’t then it would be understood if I wanted to be a realist (for once in my life) and count my winnings and cut the ties. However, I was told that they “hope to god that doesn’t happen”. Insert head over heels sigh here.
So remaining idle and enjoying the day to day has been productive and assuring. Reminding myself that enjoying the pleasures that are within arms reach is just as productive as busying myself in thinking, preparing, planning and producing. How can you find happiness if you cannot see the greatness in remaining idle? Sit, read, daydream, chat; good things come to those who nap.
In other news, work has been productive. Running my own classroom and adding my own creative flare to the curriculm has been overwhelmingly fun and satisfying. I am very content with my troop of learners; naturally there is an odd challenge, but everything can be overcome through observation and action. The school allows me to take my time before and after each day to bring the classroom back up to my standards, so I start and leave the work day content in knowing that I can leave the work at work. After all, I work to live, not live to work.